just listen mom...

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
Listen - Beyonce Knowless

itu lagu yang lagi gw rasain sekarang....
bener2 kena banget
bahkan *agak malu mengakuinya!* gw ampe nangis pas denger lagu itu
pengen rasanya gw kasih lagu ini ke nyokap gw
i just want her to listen to me
hear what's on my mind

i'm not a little child anymore mom...
i'm already grown-up
this is my life...
please support me in everything that i take, whether it is bad or good
be there when i'm down and just happy when i can make it

i know i failed u
and trust me, it hurts me too
to see u cry because of my faults and my mistakes make me wanna kill myself
because u don't deserve it mom

i love u so very much mom
i wrote this in tears, literary
but u just don't know how u meant to me
i would trade my life for your happiness
but for the moment....
i just could not give all the thing that u thought could make u happy

i'm so sorry i failed u mom
sorry...